Being Real...

Being a wife and mother...

At times your going to feel alone

Your going to break

You will feel guilty A LOT

You can lose sight of who you are

You will cry more

Your going to hate your body

Your going to find yourself jealous of people who don't have this responsibility

Your going to wish you had a tree house way up high where you could go and get away from it all...

These are some of things I have felt since being married and having my child. Now don't get me wrong I love my husband and my child more than anything but no one ever tells you the painful things. Sure they tell you oh its going to be hard or wait till this happens or wait till that. Those are the things we are expecting anyway...the late nights, the arguing, the crying, the diaper changing etc...Those, at least for me, I was prepared for but the others...hit me hard! Admitting that I have felt this way is hard. Its not easy admitting to yourself or others that you don't have the perfect life when that's all you ever thought it would be. Sometimes the way things appear to be on the outside are not always what they really are. I read a lot of blogs and see these woman and think wow they seem to have it all...I don't want anyone to ever think that about me! While it would be nice...Its not the truth and I want you to know whats true about me, what you can't always see from the surface, and to always be able to share yourself with me!

Chiken Tortilla...thingy...

So I'm not Susie homemaker by any means and cooking is my least favorite thing to do but I have a recipe that I would like to share...Its super easy totally tasty and can be made in advance which I love!!! I re-did the original recipe and kinda made my own version...I hope you like it!

Ingredients
1 whole chicken ( like the kind that are already cooked at the store )
1can cream of chicken soup
1 can cream of mushroom soup
1 small can green chilies
10 flour tortillas
1/2 pound cheddar cheese
1/2 pound jack cheese
1/2 cup milk

Directions
Pre heat oven to 350
First I take the chicken and shred the chicken breast and put it into a large mixing bowl. Then I add the cream of chicken and cream of mushroom to the shredded chicken along with any juice that is left from the chicken. You can save the rest of the chicken for something else. You will only need the chicken breast. Then I take the chilies and add that to the mix as well. I'm not a big fan of chilies so I only use half a can but you can use the whole thing if you want. Now that the mix is done I take a  glass dish ( I don't know how big like maybe a 11x16 ) and I grease the bottom with some oil just a little. I cover the bottom with tortillas and then add half my chicken mix on top then I sprinkle some cheese and lay another layer of tortillas on top. Put the rest of the chicken mix on and a little more cheese and then another layer of tortillas. Once I do that I put the rest of the cheese on top and pour my milk on top. Cover with foil and bake for 45 min. Enjoy...

Been gone far too long...

I'm so sorry I haven't been posting...I have been crafting like a mad woman trying to get some headbands made!!! I have added new items to my etsy shop and can finally slow down a little! So...just when you thought you have seen the last of me...BAM! Here I am! I will be trying to organize my time a little and make a schedule for my posts and hopefully it will allow me to bring you some more exciting things!!! So for starters... I will be posting tutorials every Tues and Thurs beginning next week. The other days of the week...well I haven't quite figured out what I'm doing but I do have a few ideas running around in my little head!!! So stay tuned for whats to come!

Elizabeth

My love...

Its so crazy how fast the time has gone by since my little man came into this world! I cant believe how big he is getting and how independent he is becoming. Its amazing to see the all the new things he is learning to do but the truth is...I'm so scared for my little love to grow up!

I want him to need me for the rest of his life! I want to be able to kiss him and cuddle him whenever I want, I want him to be here at home every night with me, I want to get him from his crib every morning and kiss him goodnight for the rest of my life, I want to hear every laugh, word, and cry that comes from his little mouth, I want to see every smile, every frown, every silly face that he makes for the rest of my life...I just want to freeze this time! It scares me and consumes me...this little fear of mine! 

The hubby and I are thinking about having another one soon and I'm so torn! One part of me wants to have another one right now and the other part...well...that's where my fear comes in...will my little man not be a little man anymore? Am I taking away from his time with just me? Will he think that he wasn't enough or that I don't love him enough? Will my love be enough? Will having another child make him grow up faster? Ugh...I'm telling you I'm way too obsessed with these fears...

I don't know what to do? I'm so confused! I know I will to come to a decision and what ever it may be I know it will all work out...I mean after all I'm not the first person to have more than one child... :)

Until then I will continue to love my one little man to the moon and back!!!

(took this picture with my phone but its my favorite picture of him)

And the winner is...

The winner of my very first giveaway is...lucky number 11! This would be my wonderful follower LaVeta! What have you won you ask...well let me tell you... A $20 dollar credit to the Life By Hand etsy shop!!! I hope you find lots of goodies! I'm so excited to see what you pick!

Are you ready for more exciting news?

Not a winner this time?

When we get to 40 followers I will have another giveaway!!! So tell you friends tell your mom! Lets get this giveaway away!

I love you all and I'm so thankful to have you as my amazing followers!!!

WooHoo!!! Giveaway time!!!

Yay! I'm so excited to have our first giveaway!!! I have reached 20 followers and as promised I will be giving one lucky winner something awesome!!! The winner will be announced Thursday along with their prize so make sure you check back to see if your the lucky winner!!!

Im loving it!!!

Ahhh...notice anything different? I'm so excited about my new blog design! I love it so much! It was so easy and quick too! I had the lovely Mary from chickadee design studios install my new template! She is so amazing and all of her designs are to die for! I hope you take a look at her goodies and consider her for any blog designs/makeovers you might need. I'm going to go now and just admire my new loveliness!

Love,

Me